Learning to appreciate life

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Cleveland, Ohio, United States
I am 40 year old single mother of 5, Christorpher 24, Christina 23, Devonta 20, Lakesha 18, Dajanae 14 and two grandchildrnen Renard Jr. 1, Leilonnie 1. I live alone with 3 of my children and 1 grandchild. I attend Kaplan University and I am in my second year, everything is going pretty good. My future plans consist of me relocating once I have graduated and starting over and doing me! I feel God had really blessed me and brought me through so much!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Well this week has been really challaging, it seems like everything happens at once. My daughter call herself running away from home this week. I didn't over react I knew where she was, and I rufuse going to get her. She ran to the place that I had just told her she couldn't go, so to me it was just and excuse to go over there anyway. If she had only listen, I only said she couldn't go because it was about to get dark and she was walking. I tried to tell her that it is to dangerous out here, and that she can't just go walking that far that late in the afernoon by herself, she went anyway. Not only that instead of her walking back home the next day she walked over my mother house which took her 2 hours down some very scarry streets, I am just glad that God was with her. Kids find some way to stress you out and at the age of 14 she is driving me crazy. I give her everything she wants as well as making sure she has everything she needs. She don't do anything around the house far as cleaning, she don't even clean up behind herself. I talk to her from sun up to sun down. And this time I didn't run after her, I am tired. She knows I am not in the best of health right now and I am trying to get myself together. I have come up with the decission to file unruly on her. The only reason I have considered this is because she is at the point where I have to fight with her every morning to get up for school. And when I try to talk to her she just ignor me. So I just feel like I am at the point where filing unruly on her is all that I know. My grandmother had to do the same for me when I was younger and found myself getting out of control, I am very thankful today that she did that because if not I would not be the women I am today. I'm just hoping and praying that my daughter realize that or get on the right path before she have to exprience that sort of thing. I really don't know what to do but I do know one thing something is going to have to change because I can't take it anymore I have done all I can. I keep trying to see where I went wrong or what I'm doing wrong but I don't see it. Something is going to have to take place so that she will appreciate home. Well I have vented enough, I hope everyone is having a better time than myself. God bless everyone!

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